Alessandro Monte

Surrrendering My Soul To the Lender...



Posted: Friday, January 27, 2012

by Alessandro Monte

I always been unsure of how to go about this thing we call Faith, and felt totally inadequate to become a speaker about what I could not explain or show in my own walk what it is all about, but regardless of all the nays about it from others and even myself, my heart had a loud yes and Amen as an answer always.

I was scared to death, if you want the truth of it I always wonder how could such a flawed man represent, speak, or write about the love of God, His mercy, grace, and all other amazing and uncountable gifts. So before that day I was chosen as imperfect as I was and still am nothing I said could have impressed you or anyone else. But was the numerous Messages He placed in my heart that overflow and spill over into the pages of Facebook and brought many of you as friends.

People ask me all the time why they should believe in a book man wrote and has been modified through the years, I simply answer, He still uses people to send notes to unknown people, to bring messages to someone they cross in the streets, God's spirit and God's power is what it does, which made it clear that all my insecurities, and qualifications was never what matter to God, but purely my willingness to do what He had placed in my life without flinching, an obedient heart that would willingly give its all even when there was nothing left to give, a heart that would be willing to share its last drop of blood to proof that Faith is greater than life itself, that God is everywhere and in everything, that we don't get to keep these amazing gifts God place in us for ourselves, it is made to get others to see His greatness, to feel His wonders, to be blessed by what they once never believed to be true. Our life of faith is a response to God's power, not to some fancy mental or emotional footwork by me or anyone else. It is a miracle in itself...

Today in this late night the clock says 3:30 am, this fighting heart has grown tired, still filled with faith and willingness waiting for my next step, my next journey, from the bottom of the worst moments in my life, ashamed for not being who I should have been, embarrassed for failing so often and so many, the heart aches, the body reacts, the mind overloaded with thoughts of what it could been, and what I need to still be, ready to surrender my soul to the lender.

I do exactly what He have asked us to do; to place all my cares to Him, to not worry about tomorrow, merely to place one foot in front of the other and keep on walking the journey He has written for me, a Best Seller in His eyes, filled with testimonies, amazing miracles, and a show of Love that will continue to spark the light of hope in many out there, all because I choose to endure the worst so that the Best in me, our God can rise from my death and shine His loving light, so as I lay my head down to try to sleep tonight through all the pain in my heart, through all my failures, all my needs and lacks, may give others the best opportunities not to face the things I been going through.

Father I give you my heart, bleeding tears of joy to serve You, an aching body, a tired mind, and a life far from being what it should or could, but in all and all l just want to say a grateful prayer! Have a wonderful!

Alessandro Carlo Monte, 01/27/2012, (C)
Alessandro Carlo Monte, a messenger, God's server, an inspirational and motivational writer, writing simple words from the heart, Father of two smart, kind and loving sons ages 14 and 16 who are his life, and who one day will be a great part of Gods vision along his side.

Born in Brazil, moved to the USA at the age of 19 filled with dreams and courage, his passion for learning helped him to strive hard to accomplish his visions and overcome the trials of learning new cultures, languages in this amazing country called United States of America.

Never had a chance to spent a day in school in the USA, but worked hard not to keep him from doing what he loves to do, encourage and inspire people with simple but heartfelt words & actions that may bring a transformation in the way others see life, family, love, and faith!

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